I was so zonked from work lately and sometimes I only managed to sleep for 2+ hours a day. I can sense that this will not end well, but eventually it will end soon, real soon. So just bear with me for a while okay? Hehe.

Anyways, despite the exhaustion with my peak period, I have so many things to be grateful about, both personal and professional :). But to be honest, what I’m most grateful for is truly, sincerely for this newfound special friend at this particular instance.

To be honest, I’m nervous to write too much, in case I jinx everything. And what if everything ends before anything even begun?

Well, August is a crazy busy period, but I don’t know, I’d looked forward to seeing him, every weekend. We spent dinner time together, sit side-by-side watching movie and spent hours chatting. And we’ve since been texting and talking over the phone, daily and frequently. It’s crazy.

So yesterday, I’d a complete meltdown. I’m just mentally, emotionally and physically exhausted, I think too much. Our WhatsApp was filled with only my messages asking inappropriate things and I did pause with an apology, in which he replied good naturally. Hehe.

He always ask how was your day Fida. When I was knee-deep in feeling overwhelmed and highly stressed out with work, he’d patiently listened and always so encouraging. He speaks and responds to me with absolute nonchalance, as if nothing about me tires him. Oh god I love this man.

Sometimes at night, I have a hard time remembering how he looked like. I can’t make out his whole image in my mind which makes me sometimes nervous. I miss him. So I lean on our shared moments and reread our texts, his warmth is apparent :).

And I like the fact that I can wear my highest heels and still be inches shorter than my man. Hehe. I’m 5’1” and he’s 5’9” I think so. I can just make full use of his height! Haha.

He’s coming to meet my parents soon. And just now few minutes ago, he wants me to meet his parents too, this weekend. OMG. I'm nervous like crazy.

#doakanyangbaik2, inshaAllah.

It all feels unreal that a man has finally entered into my life and heart. And for that, I'm forever grateful.