STAND STILL  It is so incredibly naive to think that the world would stand still just because you're not paying attention. And it's amazing how people grow before your very eyes, and how beautiful and scary that is. And now, work has truly taken over my life and I think that's the scariest. Well, tax peak period has started and I am nothing but a person trapped inside "too busy" cycle. Sobs. Anyway, my little sister is... pregnant. Ehem. She was recently married and so nothing untoward has happened. Its just that for the briefest of moments, I wondered; it would be nice to be pregnant, kan? Hehe. And right now, I am so thrilled to become an aunt. Maybe my niece or nephew can call me Ty Long. Hiks. Tetap taknak orang panggil kau maklong kan. Haha. On a separate note, my life nowadays has been better alhamdulillah. Sometimes I think, life is about growing older and proving all those proverbs true. Like how "time heals all". I thought they were all crap, until they were not. Hehe. And I have not mentioned about Mr. Arrogant anymore kan, have I? Well, time heals. But not all. Since we both have to be in the same building everyday, sometimes we bumped into each other. And we act like strangers. like we had never met before. It saddens me so much, I can't even say a simple 'hi'. Hmm, I don't really know what happened between us, but suddenly he's gone quiet on me. I secretly hope that we can work together one day. And I really want to know the reason(s) behind his silence. Did I do anything wrong or did I hurt his feelings? I'll ask him one fine day. It's about taking up a life challenge and doing something because you wouldn't want to look back someday, and regret that you didn't do it. And that's one of my biggest fears, REGRET. I wish the world might turn a little slower and everyone needs to stop going at the speed of light. 
2015!  All in all, I'm in a good place. Slowly but surely finding that balance. So, well, I haven't blogged in almost entire month, I just realised. Can't believe we're in January 2015 now. A year has passed, and a new year has just begun! And 2014 has been a hard year probably because of the many things that happened throughout the year. But it was an awesome one, was it not?  Here's hoping this new year would bring a fresh new take on everything. And I'll be home soon :). So, this year's propositions took a more relaxed turn. More multifaceted. A bit what I want to achieve personally, one about my career and also a few about my personal life. It's about time to settle down. Not getting married, no! Haha. But to settle into a stable way of life, financially and emotionally. Hehe. So travel 2015 would be less often, less far and less spending. We'll see. Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means I've decided to look beyond the imperfections.And I just did that for 2014. And now for 2015, Bismillah, come what may :)   Anyway, to my great surprise, Remy Ishak wished me Happy New Year! Hiks. Macam nak pengsan. You really made my day RI! Hehe. And the greatest surprise was a whatsapp message from the one and only, Mr Arrogant. He was in Saudi, alone, performing his umrah. It has been a long time since we contacted each other. Hmm, Que Sera, Sera. Whatever will be, will be. Can't wait to see him, again. Hehe. Labels: Random, Travel, Whatever
LETTERS TO JULIET 
After many, many days of irregular sleep, I nearly had to force myself to write something tonight. But I think I'm having writer's block often these days. Sobs. It's hard to put to words what the mind thinks, that's the problem. Hmmm. I'm getting sleepy now but just staying up a bit more so I can sahur and puasa hehe. Goreng telur, kicap and nasik! Hahaha. To hell with that diet. Hiks.
Anyway, I had that dream again last night granted I was super tired because of my exam. In any case, it was strangeeeee because I want to forget that particular person as soon as possible. But ironically, he keeps appearing in my dreams. So ok, everyone's dealt with it before. I've dealt with it before. And its not all too unfamiliar. Just give me a liitle more time, it should be okay, hopefully. But I know myself better, it won't be that easy, it will take as long as it takes.
 Another reason for the awesomeness of this movie is, the fact that there was a bit in it discussing about letting go. About how we keep resentment and anger in ourselves over something that has happened in years past. Many people leave imprints on you. No doubt about that. They leave marks where they have been or more precisely, by what they have done. Sometimes, people get over it easy, and sometimes people take years and years to just let it go.  So how's that for serious analysis from a movie? Hahaha. Sorryyyy! Hmm. I've been to Verona, Italy few months ago. Just because I want to write to Juliet. Hehe. I am stupid, I know that. But somehow, I am really waiting for their replies. Hahaha.  Dear Juliet, 
Hehe. Love is in the air :). Everyone was smiling and the vibe was good. Padlocks and love notes bersepah-sepah! Yours truly pun tak terkecuali untuk join the crowd and letak surat cinta kat situ. Haha. #Justforfun ok. Sila jangan cerca. Only hopeless romantics would leave love notes to Juliet and I'm one of them. Hehe. Haih. Assignment punya lah liat nak buat, bab-bab ni kau laju je kan! Hahaha.
 A visit to Verona is not complete without seeing Casa Di Giulietta, or kalau nak senang, panggil je Juliet's house. Hehe. It must be on the check-list if you are going to Verona. 
And a lot of people here having their picture taken with Juliet's left breast in their hand for good luck in love katanyaa! Hahaha. Pelik-pelik je manusia kan. Khurafat sangat. Tapi memang that part a bit clean, sebabbbb it has been polished by all the visitors who have rubbed it haha. Soooo inappropriate!
 Fida was here. Hehe.   Can you see my pink letter inside the letterbox? Hehe. Dear Juliet, please reply me...  And lastly, a postcard to my family back home. Labels: Europe, Italy, Random, Review, Travel, Verona, Whatever
KEEP CALM  Somewhere in Monte Carlo
I am sick.
And also insanely tired. And mildly headache. I had to force myself (or at least I had to) get out of my bed this morning as I wanted to beat my sickness as soon as humanly possible since I'll be taking few exams next week and the week after that. They said, demam rindu which I think yes, maybe its true. Haha. Hmm, I don't get sick very often to be honest. The last time I got sick when I was in Makkah. I was sooo sick that I couldn't wake up and go to Haram to perform my Umrah. But I believe Allah is the Most Merciful, there are always hidden blessings in the hardships Allah gives us. :). And lately, I'm getting sooo emotional. Blame it on the hormones. Or does the weather really affect your emotions? Now, it is a lot cooler than the previous week. It was raining almost everyday. Where are you Mr. Sun? Hmmm.
Few days ago, I was studying in my attic as usual. But at some point, I really had to stop doing everything and just listen to the sound that rain made hitting my attic roof. Hmm. I love rain, I just fall in love with the smell of the rain and I find it very soothing. But why am I so melancholy? Sigh. Do I miss someone really bad? My friend gave me one quote, "it's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone if your heart still does". I can't lie to myself. Its just my mind that gets angry, but my heart demi Allah, I still care.
The fact that I don't want to contact him any more, the tears just keep falling. And I went to my friend's room just because I know I am responsible for what I choose to feel, and that moment I chose to cry. Call me stupid it's okay, after all I'm only human. She hugged me. Sobs. I told her that the sound of rain makes me so sad. And maybe the kind of music (piano and violin music collections for relaxing and studying) that I was listening to at that time, enhance the effect of that melody to me, I don't know.
 Somewhere in Monte Carlo
Reality hits hard. I really miss my old self. And its already 12.15am and I am due to be up in less than 6 hours to study, so till later. Thanks for reading :).
 Labels: LIFE IN THE UK, Random, Whatever
NEW BOOST JUICE BAR IN TOWN!  
This is love and support post dedicated to Mr Arrogant :).
His new Boost Juice Bar opens with soft launch on 28 April 2014! Details as below; Boost Juice JSCSo please drop by for some smoothies, ok? :).   Ya Allah... all teary-eyed, yet happy :'). So proud of him. Super ambitious, super workaholic. And I miss him more and more by every second. But he doesn't need to know. Because he just doesn't have to. I never made the first move with any guy, but with him, its just different. I gave in. Because he is so mysterious and seems so UNATTAINABLE. He is truly truly truly interesting and words can't describe. Dear you, There's actually exists someone who loves you this much... who admires you in every perfection and imperfection. And that someone falls for you this deep... He told me to come when I'm back. And I replied, Inshaa Allah kalau balik, nanti I datang. Hmm. He doesn't know that I really want to come on the 28th tu jugak. Tersangat-sangat nak pergi. And little he realized how deeply interested I am towards him, so I sent this. Sort of virtual presence. Hehe.   Just a little gift and this is all I can do to support. And that girl on CCTV, it's me. I was caught on CCTV doing something really stupid. Hehe. The most embarrassing moment of my life anyway. I secretly put chocolates on his table but one night I forgot to close the door of his office and I created major security issues and I received an email from his partner and yes EVERYONE knows. They can't use the computer the whole day sebab system blocked and they thought ada pencuri masuk sebab pintu office terbukak. Sobs. And CCTV proved that I was the culprit. Hahaha. I was crying sampai nak resign bagai sebab tersangat malu. Apa aku dah buat niiii? And ini lah salah satu sebab kenapa asal jumpa dia je lari. Soooo many strange things happened between us.  
So which one is your favourite? Hehe. He loves brekkie to gogo but I loveee watermelon lychee crush. Sini takde! Sedih. Tapi haritu when I was in London, I bought brekkie to gogo. Yummeyyh. Hehe.
  And Boost Juice JSC is now hiring team members! Part time and full time positions are available. Please email them at; boostjuicebars.jsc@gmail.com  Ok guys, pergi tau Boost! Healthy lifestyle, one boost juice per day ok? Hehe. Picture credit : Boost Juice Bars Malaysia FB
SUATU MASA  Bagaimanakan ku mula Dan apakah kata-kata Yang indah untuk diabadikan Tiap wajah berkisah Tiap madah bererti Manakah ilhamku Cahaya di matamu Senyum di bibirmu Mengukir seribu tanda pertanyaan Mungkinkah kau jua dalam kerinduan Di saat begini aku merindukan Berpucuk-pucuk surat Terbiar di depanku Tak dapat aku utuskan Ku ramas semua Dan ku buangkan Jauh dari pandangan Lalu aku kesal Ku kumpul semula Tak dapat ku nyatakan apa yang ku rasa Andai engkau tahu gelora hatiku Mungkinkah kau sahut jeritan batinku Dengarkanlah panggilanku Dengarkanlah lagu untukmu Angin lalu kau sampaikan Rasa rindu yang membara Kepadanya Warna-warna cintaku Kian pudar bersama Malam yang gelap gelita Entahkan kau rasakan Apa yang aku rasa Atau kau tak endah Tapi ku percaya Semua telah tertulis Dan niat suciku takkan disiakan Dan di suatu masa Di hari yang indah Ku hulur tanganku Lalu kau terima
Beautiful melody and lyrics :')
I've been ignored again... and again.
And how patient is patient?
Hmmm.
I just love that guy...
with no definite reason :'(.
And I hope someday you'll miss me when I'm gone
and when I stop chasing you.
ANOTHER YEAR HAS COME AND GONE 2013 has been a fantastic year. A year filled with incredible components of fun, action, changes, sorrow, joy, experiments, love and many more. Reflecting December 2013, my life has gone into different new turns and heights. The love and care of my family, best friends, friends and colleagues are nowhere at a point to be questioned :'). 2013 was a year full of trials and depression but after all 2013 has been a positive year, at least for me :). Been blessed beyond measures, alhamdulillah . I am not really into new year resolutions and wishlist. Tapi, on a second thought, I could use them as guidelines as I go along and continue my journey for this year, inshaa Allah. No longer a secret, I'll be going to Birmingham, United Kingdom soon for at least a year, to finish what I've started. ACCA. Ada 4 papers lagi. There were times when I just couldn't take it anymore. I failed twice and I stopped. Hahaha. That was in 2011. Lama dah tinggal benda ni and it is super hard. Susah. Tapi ACCA would give a better career prospects and better pay :). So just do it! Hehe. Travel plan. So far I only have few destinations on my list. Saudi, Hong Kong, Macau, Shenzhen and UK. As for the rest of it, only time will tell. Well, life is indeed a journey :). And I really HOPE to pray for my future Imam bersaksikan Kaabah Allah dan Taman Raudhah Rasulullah. Tingkatkan darjatku Ya Allah, sebagai seorang isteri, seorang ibu :'). May we be focused on our goals and dreams. May we achieve all of them if they are beneficial for us in the long run. And may all of our intentions and actions be blessed with His and our parents' barakah and redha. Semoga kita semua menjadi lebih baik :). Last but not least, here are the highlights for 2013. Another year has come and gone. How time flies.  SOUTH KOREA  JAPAN  JAKARTA & BANDUNG  DUBAI  TURKEY  BARCELONA  SWISS  BALI  JAKARTA & BANDUNG  THE WINNER OF MITBCA AWARDS, FEATURED IN UTUSAN MALAYSIA & HARIAN METRO  And that's how I fall for you without knowing much about you :)
And he was stranded last night in Winter Wonderland. Hmmm. Cold weather and it was raining! Why did he tell me that it hurts me so bad. And why do I always think about him? I'm soooo over with this first move thing.
For the past months, I have been greeted by pleasant beginnings. Tomorrow is yet another memorable starting point of one of the many dimensions in my life. And for that I'm forever grateful :) Happy new year! Labels: Random, Travel, Whatever
FLOATING UMBRELLA  EMPIRE DAMANSARA PERDANA
Aren't these gorgeous? Sooooo lovely as decoration :).
 YORK, UNITED KINGDOM
Ohhhh... he sent me this. Somewhere in York, United Kingdom :'). Ada lagi few pictures but all pemandangan. Haha its ok. Thank youuuuuu. Tak dapat pergi, tengok gambar pun jadi lah. Sobs.
And so now smile Fida, it's a brand new day. Just enjoy every little thing in life... at the moment. Last but not least... goodbye 2013, and hello 2014! Till then :)
THAT'S MY STORY  First and foremost, alhamdulillah the most awaited day has come at last! And I am ready to serve one month notice period effective semalam, 24 December 2013. My firm policy, so bring it on. When I was typing my resignation letter yesterday, hate to admit but I got teary-eyed. Sobs. I'm a tax consultant by profession doing mainly corporate tax returns and I love my job, seriously. Sometimes ada la meroyan sana sini, but that's what life is all about. Kind of a love-hate relationship. Lucky I'm not leaving because of any drama atau pun because I don't like my job. It's just that Allah has better plans for me than I had for myself :). Take a break for one year and finish what you have started :). I am still very nostalgic. EY... my first and only job, my first and only interview. Bittersweet :'). Hmmm, change is always hard. And alhamdulillah I am now a Chartered Accountant :'). My application has just been approved in the recent council meeting of Malaysian Institute of Accountants (MIA). This is one of the things that you really have to do before leaving the firm! Haha. Kalau tak memang jenuh nak apply lepas ni. I should have applied the membership earlier, at least last year. Takde la kelam kabut macam ni. Haih. But anyway, semua benda pun macam dah almost settle :). Just pending sikit-sikit lagi, my visa application. Ada 3 visa nak kena buat altogether and I'm planning to apply for US visa jugak, tapi macam tak dan je nak buat. Sobs. Too little time. Gedik je ni, nak pergi entah bila. Tapi orang kata sediakan payung sebelum hujan gitu konsepnya. Hahaha. At least that visa valid for 10 years, multiple entries kan. Manalah tahu gedik nak pergi from UK ke. #eh?? Haha. So... that's about it. A brief summary of everything. I'm leaving real soon! Mixed feelings. Suka, takut, sedih, excited, semualah. :'). Semoga Allah permudahkan segalanya. Hmm... year end is approaching, holiday mode is on. And that Mr. Arrogant pun tak terkecuali. He is currently in London. Mungkin busy berkuntum dekat Oxford Street sekarang ni, boxing day kan ataupun baru bangun tido nak cari makan, lapar katanya. Hehe. Sobs. My life is pretty weird enough nowadays. And yes we met again just two of us :'). Not a date, no. It was just an extended ice breaking session. He is the strangest crush I have EVER had in my life, the weirdest, and I know he knows I like him that's for sure. Too obvious kot. Hmmm. We met few times dah sebenarnya, kata satu office kan. Sometimes I ran away, sometimes just borak dengan kawan-kawan dia and pretend he's not there. Hahaha. No eye contact, NEVER! Dah jangan nak cakap drama ke apa, tapi memang tak boleh berdepan dengan dia secara normal. Postur badan jadi kaku, oksigen makin kurang, muka jadi panas, rasa nak pengsan. Hahaha. Biarlah orang tu nak confused ke apa, I just don't have enough courage to face this! Hehe. So, can you imagine? WE NEVER REALLY KNEW EACH OTHER. Sangat awkward kot sebab dia pun pernah tanya directly kat FB ok kenapa you lari you? Haih. And few people yang tahu pasal drama lari-lari ni gatal tangan pergi like?? Choii. And last Monday few hours before flight dia to London we met over lunch. :'). I NEVER thought this would happen, seriously. Sebab the day before tu dia macam diam je. He kept me waiting kot. Haih. Memang we had a deal Thursday haritu tapi at least bagitahu la kan Ahad tu jadi ke tidak. Walaupun dia takde la cancel ke apa and we promised each other dah pun. Cumanya what if kalau dia lupa? Aku ni punyalah tak boleh duduk diam since Thursday. Duk fikir macam-macam. So I cried. Sebab soo sad. Hmm I guess I'm just a little too sensitive. Tapi my friend bagi tahu, don't push. He's a smart guy he knows his schedule so he knows dia dah janji with you, Inshaa Allah the lunch is on dear just tunggu! Hehe tapi knowing me, one drama after another. Jadinya Monday haritu, I just wore kurung modern biasa pink colour macam selalu pakai pergi office. Mata and muka bengkak and sembab sikit sebab nangis kan. Hahahaha. Dramanya kau ni Fida oi. Ni baru nak kenal ni kau dah buat drama macam-macam. Haih. My bad, I know! Then around 9.30 am macamtu dia whatsapp "dalam pukul 12 lunch?" OMG! It took me 30 minutes to reply kot. Sebab dengan condition muka dan mata yang tak mengizinkan, duk fikir macam tak nak jumpa je. Dah la first time ni. And I said next time maybe sebab taknak dia rushing, flight dia malam kan. Tapi dia cakap ok je, flight 12 midnight. Hehe. So I went to Watson bawah office, pergi beli Revlon eye concealer uolss!!!! Hahahahahahaha. Punyalah nak tutup mata bengkak. Hehe. Lupa nak bawak concealer kat rumah, sebabnya how do I know?? Pergi office just bawak basic make up palette sudah, perlu ke nak angkut semua kan. Tak pasal-pasal je. Huhuhu. I was not ready to see him please. Semua pun serba tak kena. So he came and he picked me up :'). I don't like surprises, really. Ingatkan dia datang office and nak makan area office je. And dia sengih cakap takde nice place kat sini. Ok first thing I noticed, he dressed properly! Sobs. Sedangkan iols? Sedih. His friend bagitahu jangan nak overdress sangat sebab he might wear his usual t-shirt, khakis short and slipper je pun. Hehe. Tapi no no no! He wore polo collar shirt kaler navy blue, jeans and dark brown loafers :'). Sekali tengok je masa dalam kereta dia and terus lekat dalam kepala otak kekdahnya. Haha terus tersenyum sorang-sorang tanpa sedar gitu sebab selalu tengok dia kat FB memang dia tak pakai macam ni and masa jumpa dia time Sapura Carnival that day pun dia tak macam ni. Totally different. Hehe. Oh God, the first impression that Mr. Arrogant gave is incredibly amazing. How nih,?? I'm going to hurt myself soon. And heartbroken. Tapi kalau orang yang kenal this guy mesti pelik kenapa la duk suka dia sangat-sangat. No reason please I just like him the way he is. :'). He is strong-willed, passionate, ambitious, gentle, kind, firm and the list goes on that made me feel so much attracted to him. As much as within my limited knowledge before, I like him. Then now I see him and I like him even more. Hmmm. Sedih kan. I thought kalau dah jumpa tu maybe ada la benda yang boleh buat perasaan tu hilang. But no I was wrong. He brought me to the Italian restaurant lupa dah apa namanya. Tengok menu pon tak paham apa benda. I was totally clueless. Makanan apa nih. Hahaha. So I asked him apa yang sedap. Hehe. He is so gentleman la pulak haihhhh. Duk cerita ni pun tersengih sorang-sorang. Hehe. Scene bukak pintu kereta ataupun tarik kerusi tu semua bukan reality ok, kalau nak scene tu pi tengok cite Korea! Hahahaha. He is gentle in his own way :'). Baik, soft-spoken, witty. Pelik sangat dia tak pernah ada any relationship before with any girls. Too busy maybe and he is too workaholic or maybe he's not ready for any commitment. Kalau orang tak kenal dia maybe akan fikir he's married and dah mid 30's. Dia memang nampak mature tapi the fact is, he is just a year older than me :). So we ordered the food, and we talked, and talked and talked. 2 hours and half kot? 12.00 - 2.30 hehe. Kesian dia sebab he told me dia tak packing lagi, tak tukar duit lagi and tak withdraw duit pun lagi. Hahaha. Last minute jugak dia ni pun. He loves travelling a lot. Tu yang tak kisah pun pergi sorang. Haih dia ni suka senyum and benda ni macam menyakitkan hati. Sobs. Both of us takde tengok handphone pun dalam duration 2 jam setengah tu and I like it that way. Hahaha. Kalau salah sorang tengok dah sah-sah la boring kan. Hiks. Ok confession time, iols cuma makan 2 suap je. Hahahahahaha. Tak lalu uols. Dia sampai tanya tak sedap ke. Hehehehe. I said no tapi tak lapar. Haih. Bengong je. And dah after sejam setengah borak tu the waiter ada tanya do you want any desert sir? And he asked me nak coffee tak. I said no its ok. Sebabnya kan, apple juice ni pon tak habis lagi. Sekali dia order 2 coffee pulak dah! Time tu dah 1.30. Lunch hour dah habis diknon! Dia takpelah tengah cuti kan. And my coffee pun tak habis, punya lah nervous. Padahal kan, I'm a coffee lover. Then he asked for the bill and dia bayar. So bila nak masuk kereta tu dia macam ckp sorry Fida, panas sikit. Memang panas la sebab dia park dekat open site, tengah hari lagipun, tapi perlu ke cakap sorry?? Commonly known ok and not his fault pun. Lumrah alam katanya kalau dah tengah hari buta memang panas la. Hahaha. And I was just looking at him je lah cakap it's ok tengah hari kot and dia duk betul-betulkan aircond. Hahaha. Lepastu dia cakap, takut cair make up you. Bahahahahhahahahahahahaha. Sekarang aku memang rasa nak tergelak. Dalam kereta tu rasa macam eeeeeee bencinya. Make up ala kadar je pon macam biasa pergi office. Ceh! So dalam kereta dia cakap lagi, next time jangan lari-lari dah. I tak makan orang kan? Kekeke. Motif?? And I just replied, tak tahu la kenapa lari from you and senyum je la kan, nak buat apa lagi. Then he replied, maybe kita tak kenal kot, sebab tu you lari. Hehe. Anyway masa before dia drop kan kat depan lobby office, I told him sini la the first time I nampak you dengan your boss nak pergi makan. Hehe. That was few months ago. And before keluar from his car, I gave him one book the best attractions in the UK. Buku ni dah letak kat office since last Friday! Hahaha. So I told him, ni my book tau, you pinjam je sebab nanti you travel alone kat UK. Nanti pulangkan balik. Dia macam gelak besar and cakap haaa pinjam je?? Hahaha. Its not yours, its mine ok. And then terusla iols keluar macamtu je terlupa nak cakap thank you please for everything!!! OMG. So classic. Sobs. That book is quite thick and besar macam text book sejarah ok. I bought masa Big Bad Wolf tu untuk kegunaan masa hadapan. Hehe. Ingatkan dia taknak bawak sebab memang tebal, leceh je tapi before dia fly tu dia cakap dia bawak that book, and he said thank you. Hehe. Tak tau la tipu ke apa but thank you :). I did ask how much should I pay, it is a common courtesy anyway. Tapi dia cakap ala tak payahla. Hmmm. Thank you so much for everything. Stay safe wherever you are and happy holiday :). Wow panjangnya! Tak sangka. Hahaha. Thank you for reading. I might delete this post later I don't know. He's that interesting, although it was brief and didn't turn out the way I hope, it's undeniable to say that he's so special to be able, effortlessly made me feel the way I feel now. I will remember this guy as someone very special whom Allah brought briefly in my life although he was never mine. :') Oh God, I've said way too much. One more month and we will never see each other again. But life is a journey, so just wait and see. Labels: Random, Whatever, Work
CRUSH SINETRON  KAWAH PUTIH, BANDUNG There is too much drama in my life lately and seriously I am trying my best to stay away, to stay free of it. Tapi kan, it seems that Mr. Arrogant is no longer arrogant, maybe? Hehe. Entahla. Maybe he knows I’m leaving soon, so dia macam lain. Not his usual self. Hmmm. Dealing with a crush can be difficult, uncomfortable and also confusing at the same time. Haih. And we finally set some time to meet over lunch. How do I act normal around him? The fact that I always run and run and run bila jumpa dia sampaila dia pun naik pening and confused. Perempuan ni dah kenapa. Hahaha. But no matter how hard I try, I just can’t. Tak confident langsung . Sobs. Yes it’s just lunch but why I’m so nervous! So nanti nak pakai baju apa? Hahaha. Ok, he will be on leave that day tapi nak mai office ke macam mana, I’m not really sure apa arrangement dia nanti. But whatever it is, benda ni akan sangat awkward. Help me. I want to meet him so bad but at the same time I hope it won’t happen. Hahaha. Ting tong sangat ni. I’m insane. “Alritey mitey lunch it is” gituuu sangat so sweet pulak dah ayat Mr-Not-So-Arrogant ni. Kekeke. Tapi sweet ke masalahnya? Hmmm. And he told me he’ll be going to York, UK alone next week. Hayoh. Such a lonely man he is. Hahaha. Yakin je. Well, when you are concerned about someone, you become over-analytical about each and every word written and spoken. Tak ke? Or is it just me? OVER-ANALYTICAL and such a stalker person I am. Sobs. But one thing that makes me so happy adalah, he came to see me when I was on leave last week! Hehehe happy uols. Tatau nak cakap macam mana. Tak kesah la dia datang atas sebab apa sekalipun tapi he did come anyway kan. Haha. Sah-sah takleh nak lari pi mana-mana pon kalau dia dah terjah macamtu. Takkan nak nyorok bawah meja ye dok. Kalau dekat Majestic Hotel haritu boleh la lari-lari turun naik escalator. Hahaha gila perempuan ni. But thank God I was on leave. Hmmm should I keep liking him, or should I really stop liking him? You are just amazed at his charms and you fall in too deep Fida. And I REALLY can’t believe myself either. Hmm sooo sorry, banyak sangat post ngarut lately, but no worries when I think I have said enough, I will stop. I am just plain exhausted. Nak buat macam mana kan, I’m just a woman. My friend once said, sedangkan baby Azwan Ali dengan Michael Ang pun meroyan, apatah lagi perempuan tulen macam iols? Hahaha tak gitu? Hmm. When the time comes, it comes. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be. Labels: Bandung, Random, Whatever
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